Something I've never ever said before
&& yes I'm aware this may bite me in the ass =/


About 3 years ago I was in a very serious relationship with a girl
that was very special to me at the time. We were dating for about 2 &&
a half years. I was 18 at the time and I was very insecure and jealous
[2 very bad traits to have]. I use to snoop around thru her stuff, check her
e-mails, voice mails, even learned how to hack into computers so whatever
she had on her screen would show on my computer screen. Technology is a bitch,
I knew at the time what I was doing was wrong, but I was so convinced that
she was cheating on me that it didn't bother me going through her personal stuff.
I knew I would eventually find something to make my case.
As I look back at the time and situation,
I realize that the more you look for dirt, the more dirt you will find. The one thing
I regret [&& damn I hate to use the word 'regret'] was being so nosey.
I've spent the past years learning to deal with my trust issues but sometimes...